Just So You Know.......

This post has been on my mind, in my heart for a few days now..........always regulated to the back of the bunch when a new thought arises, when a new idea forms.........but it's always there, just as you are my love.  A post like this has been written before, there have been words before about you, many times.  My husband, my love, the passion in the every day, you and me before the three............but it's worth repeating.


Just so you know..........I think about you all through my day.  I can't wait for you to come home, not so I can get a break from the kids, a break from the day........although there are those days........but more because I miss you, weird as that may seem.  I miss you.  I miss having you to talk to, no one cares as much about our kids, no one knows the me of today like you do.  I look forward to you.  I am so sorry that it never seems quite the way by the time you walk through the door but I do, I look forward to you, just you.


Just so you know..............every morning when you leave, and it's dark and it's cold and everyone else is asleep........I offer up a prayer of thanks to God.  I thank God for a husband such as you that gets up and goes to work and sacrifices every day for his family that slumbers while he drives.  It means the world to me that you think it's just as important that I stay in my jammies, cook breakfast and read to our kids.  Thank you.


Just so you know..............I dream of us.  I dream of me and you - on dates, at dinner, on walks, strolling through Target on a Friday night, cuddling up watching movies, anything really where it's just the two.  I want you to know that as much as my whole world is made up of our three.......that I still look to when it's just us two.  I dream of those nights, those days, that time in the future.  I will always come back to you and me.


Just so you know...............you are my steady and strong to my here and now, passionate self.  You are my anchor, my rock.  Your integrity, while driving me crazy at times, makes me proud.  I am so proud to be your wife.  I look at you and know........I know that you are unchanging.  That who you are today is who you will be tomorrow, I never have to worry.  In this world where decisions are made and lives are changed on a whim I know that your decision was made long ago and you are here.  You are mine.


Just so you know............you are my dream.............dreamed long ago when I was a girl.........and you are more than I ever expected or wanted.  I love that there is a side of you that only I know, that only is mine.  I love when your arms find me in the dark and hold me tight, you drowsy with sleep but still letting it be known that you are mine and I am yours.  My dream was made sweeter because it is anchored in the reality that you have given to me, that we have created together.


Just so you know..................when I am raging within, when I am filled with doubt and uncertainty, when I am convinced of my unworthiness and feel sick within me................you, you always bring me back.  You remind me.  You pray for me.   You love me.  When in the midst of battle with someone, something, I think.............just get me to Joe, bring him home............I need his sureness.  I need the safety of you.


Just so you know...............you are more than the oil changed, the bills payed, the house kept running.  You are more than the child keeper, the trash taker, the door locker.  You are the beat of my heart, the steady rhythm of this house.  You are the gift giver, the secret keeper, the bunny hunter.   You hold in your hands the key to this family - you are it's firm foundation.


Just so you know..............you always point me up to Him.  I see you hit your knees.  I see your head bent in prayer at the sound of any siren.  I see the letters you send, the letters that come addressed to Mr. Joe.  I see your generosity.......with your time, with your money, with your love.  Others may not see...............but I see.  I see your faith.  I see your steadfastness.  I see your growth in Him.


Just so you know..............always, always will I love you.


Just so you know..........